i love you and will do my hardest to pull through all of this negativity.

it won’t be easy, we both know this. but we’ll get through and just become that much more stronger.

things are kinda shitty right now

keep alan and i in your thoughts

<3 

the first chapter in my new life was leaving philip and getting my life back. chapter two is having alan in my life and moving out and us living on our own together. we’ve been together just two months but i really don’t have another option. the scariest part will be the reactions we get but we’re trying to brace ourselves early. besides that it will be making sure we have enough to get by. i took an online evaluation and it said we will qualify for food stamps which will help so so much! we are trying to find a 1 bed 1 bath but we may end up with a studio which is okay! as long as we have a place to call our home and have each other, that’s all we really need for now. he’s going to be graduating in june from college and is going to look for a job with that. he will be able to work with video editing and such and i’m so excited for him! i’m going to call about orientation for GED classes now and figure out all that. I may push it back to the fall but i’ll have to ask alan about it…

just so much is happening so quickly and it’s so surreal. 

but i am happy.

just set up three viewings for next wednesday for three different places that are all under our budget!!! SUPER EXCITED!

I’M TRYING TO STAY SUPER POSITIVE

AND THINGS ARE REALLY LOOKING UP

but i keep falling down and getting stressed.

I just have to remind myself that I have an amazing supportive man who is going to be right by my side throughout all of this and that it will only be difficult for a small amount of time.

soooo im going to move out on my own??

with alan????

I AM KINDA SCARED

but ready to take the world on!